I found "that" at Impact Trainings

Like I said in my last post, I didn’t need Impact Trainings (but I am sure glad I went). I was happy. I loved my job. I loved my family. Things were going good. But after seeing my wife go through Impact Trainings, I wanted to be on the same page as she was. She was moving forward in her life and I wanted that. At the time, I couldn’t quite put my finger on what “that” was, but something inside of me wanted “that”. In looking back, I can now see that after going through Impact Trainings, she was alive. Not just breathing or going through the motions, but really alive and enjoying ever moment. It didn’t seem to matter what she was doing, she enjoyed it. I was happy, but she had something I was missing. She was happy because of what was going on inside of her. I was happy because things were going well on the outside of me. Like I said, at the time I didn’t know it, but “that” was inner peace and I hungered for it. I was actually starving for it and didn’t realize it. No matter how happy I was, no matter how good things in my life were going, no matter how much money or success I achieved, there was something inside missing and I could feel the void when I was around her because she had it and I didn’t. (It didn’t always feel like a void, I just wanted to be with her. I felt good when I was with her. One more time, I was looking to something outside of me to fill what was missing on the inside.) But that’s all jumping ahead. At the time I went into Impact Trainings Quest, I didn’t realize any of that. As a matter of fact, I wasn’t able to tell you much of anything about how I felt. Pryor to Impact Trainings, if you had asked me how I felt, I would of answered something like: hungry, cold, hot, good or fine (Oh yea, there were a couple of emotions I was very in touch with – anger and frustration, but I kept those bottled up deep inside of me; you never would have guessed it by looking at me – all smiles.) But that all changed after going through Impact Trainings. The smile now comes from deep inside and peace is mine.

Steve