When I woke for day two of Impact Trainings Quest training, I was
feeling about the same as when I had fallen asleep, very deep in
reflection and didn't feel much like talking. The training was
scheduled to start at 3:00 pm, so I had a lot of time on my hands to go
over what I had experience the day before.
I had noticed that some people in the training were going for it and
giving it all they had. It was obvious that they wanted to change their
lives. There were also two or three people there who seemed to resist
everything that came up. Not only did it appear that they were
resistant to change anything, but they would argue with anyone or
anything that was different from them. At the time I didn’t realize it,
but I had a lot of judgment against these people. I felt bad for the
people in their lives who probably had to put up with their
stubbornness on a regular basis. Even with all of this, I wasn’t sure
if I was ready to open up either. I wanted too, but for some reason, I
wasn’t sure if I could. I was starting to realize that I was living my
life in a way that I avoided taking risks, especially in relationships.
If I didn’t let people get close, then they couldn’t hurt me, right?
As the day progressed, my emotional and mental walls became very clear.
I realized that although I was popular and had lots of friends, I
didn’t let any of them get too close (maybe that’s why I had lots of
friends, instead of just a few). I still didn’t want to open up. If I
did, I felt I would be too vulnerable. And I realized that if I let
people get close to me, I thought I might get hurt. I started to notice
patterns that were going on in my life. Things like, how I avoided
making commitments. I didn’t like being tied down. The more I looked,
the more I realized this was affecting everything in my life. It was
affecting my job, my marriage and my family. And it didn’t just affect
me, it was affecting the people who I was in relationship with. I
started to wonder how my commitment issues affected my wife. I had told
her over and over that I was committed and that I loved her, but I
started to wonder if she could sense the things I wasn’t saying. I
didn’t feel that I had been critical in our relationship, but in
looking back, I can see that I blamed her (a lot of it silently) for
most of the challenges we had gone through. She was the one that needed
to shift, not me. I was the happy one, so it couldn’t have been me, it
had to be her. No wonder half the marriages in the United States end in
divorce if they looked at things the way I did before going through
Impact Trainings. (As I am writing this I am laughing at myself. My ego
was so naive and narcissistic that it really believed that other people
were the cause of my problems and if they would just change then
everything would be fine. Oh how funny life is.) As the day progressed,
my vision into myself became clearer and clearer. By the end of the
day, the life long behaviors that weren’t working in my life were very
obvious. The more I looked, the more I could see what I wanted to
change (I also could see a lot of my life that worked very well, but my
focus at this time was on changing the things that were not working in
my life, not defending the things that were working)
I also got in touch with how others perceived me (again, I was focusing
on the things that I might want to change, not the things that were
working well in my life). I wondered why it was that people saw
something different than what I was feeling on the inside. Couldn’t
they see who I really was? That night I had a lot of excuses (once
again, blaming others) as to why people couldn’t see the real me, but
it wasn’t until the next morning that the light bulb went on – How
could they see the real me, if I wasn’t willing to risk and open up and
show them the real me. I realized that this was also true in other
aspects of my life. I was always hiding part of me behind my image, my
persona, my jokes and even my smile. Always trying to protect myself.
If people could see through my masks, they would see everything, the
good, bad and the ugly. Would they still like me if they could see it
all?
Over the last two days, something had started to shift in me. I was
starting to let go of my judgments for others. Several people in the
training had been very honest and open about what was not working in
their lives. I found that I didn’t judge them for it or think less of
them. I actually admired their courage and felt closer to them. All of
these people were very different in so many ways, but that didn’t seem
to matter. I started to realize that we all have our own unique mix of
good and bad, ugly and beautiful. Maybe it was OK that I wasn’t perfect
in everyway. Maybe accepting others just the way they are makes them
perfect in that moment? Ether way, I was now ready to start my
training. I realized half my Impact Quest Training had slipped by and
if I wanted anything to be different when it was over, it was time for
me to actively start moving forward and shifting what wasn’t working
for me.
Other websites with testimonials about Impact Trainings:
Impact Trainings Results - Impact Trainings
Healed World - Impact Trainings
It's Happening Today - Impact Trainings
Love, Life & Light - Impact Trainings
Self Improvement Home - Impact Trainings
My Impact Team - Impact Trainings
Best Top Management - Impact Trainings
Team Improving - Impact Trainings
The Awareness Page - Impact Trainings
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